love illuminates
Feb. 14th, 2011 09:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
slowlyunfoldingGoing through my old journals over the weekend was eye opening. It`s amazing to see parts of yourself that you've forgotten, or that time has gently glossed over. I feel like I'm in a much better place emotionally. At the very least I'm climbing out of the funk & gloom I've been in lately.
Specifically, this all relates to my relationship (or lack thereof) with my mom. I'd been under the impression that it was living with her & dad again & the stress of helping take care of dad that contributed to the friction in our relationship. It was not so. In fact, the friction started to amp up when I first began dating the mister, but it was prevalent as soon as I came back from university. I just don't understand how mom thought she could put rules on me at 25 that didn't exist when I was 16. I'd moved out at 19, lived with roommates, then on my own for a couple of years. It was (and always will be) behaviour I will never understand.
Specifically, this all relates to my relationship (or lack thereof) with my mom. I'd been under the impression that it was living with her & dad again & the stress of helping take care of dad that contributed to the friction in our relationship. It was not so. In fact, the friction started to amp up when I first began dating the mister, but it was prevalent as soon as I came back from university. I just don't understand how mom thought she could put rules on me at 25 that didn't exist when I was 16. I'd moved out at 19, lived with roommates, then on my own for a couple of years. It was (and always will be) behaviour I will never understand.