shh.

I'm learning that I need take it easy on myself right now. I am easily overwhelmed. I almost lost it at work a couple of times today; over nothing really at all. At lunch time I got a little hyper & basically yelled out that I didn't want to keep talking about buying a new car, etc. One lady was peppering me with questions, but not actually waiting in between questions for me to respond. It was just too much & I almost freaked out. Yet, other people can ask me whatever they want & it doesn't bother me at all. I think it's the rapid-fire barrage of questions that stresses me out. She seems to think that it will be no problem to just get another car. I hope so, but our credit is not perfect, so, we'll see.

My stomach has been doing the rolling lurch thing from the anxiety. If this lady keeps doing the question barrage at me, I'm going to have to speak up. I know this. Everything just feels really huge right now, when she asked me what my book was about, I just said I didn't know. Mostly because I didn't want to talk anymore. She also tries to finish my sentences sometimes by guessing what I'm going to say. That is another irksome thing. Anxiety is amplifying everything that annoys me lately.

We've heard back from the adjuster. Book value on our car was $2000, but we're getting $2260. That's not bad for an 11 year old car. At least it's a downpayment for another one. The mister has to go to the insurance company to sign for the cheque as it will be in his name. Awesome. I'm hoping it will be ready on Friday. Fingers crossed. I want to get off this anxiety roller coaster. Also, I want to have an unbroken night of sleep too. One thing at a time.