body

[slowlyunfolding]

This morning I had a bit of a body-image blah. Not a tweak-out, not hysterics, just a feeling of "OMG this shirt *is* too big on me and looks horrible. I wanted to ransack my closet/laundry basket/universe for something else I could wear to work, and I just knew I didn't have anything in there that I wanted or really suits this time of year. I just wanted to feel ... pretty. I did put on a fine gauge 3/4 sweater that I love. At the end of the day waiting for the bus I was pretty toasty, but still, I felt nicer in it. The office was super air conditioned today, so at times I did feel chilly.

What it came down to was realizing that I want(ed) to rip out that part of me that doesn't like how I look, what size or shape I am. I want to silence that voice that is so harsh & relentless that is on loop in the back of my head sometimes. It's not always there. But when it rears it's head, I feel frustrated and reduced.

Small universe in my head, I take up space. Deal with it.

*finger snap*

Comments

[heidishambles.livejournal.com]

I have days like that too. I even have special clothes for just them days, and for days when I feel fat. It sucks.

[heidishambles.livejournal.com]

Also, I feel like maybe I should leave you little note. I was reading people's answers to sihaya09's question meme. I found your journal. I friended you because although I am not practising it, I'm interested in yoga and the lifestyle that usually surrounds it. I also try and friend people who are in process off trying to better themselves, as that's what I am attempting to do, albeit slowly and propably by taking the long, difficult road. I am not the most organized or motivated of people. :) I apologize for occasional typos etc. as English is not my first language. I'm glad to see you friended me, but you are completely free to unfriend me anytime you feel like. That's all.

[nalathilion.livejournal.com]

Hey, no problem! You are welcome here as long as you want.

[wilhelmina-d.livejournal.com]

You tell that brain! :)