totally screwed up. (not really)

[slowlyunfolding]

I'm feeling slightly sarcastic at something that was said to me today at work. Let's just say that some people make the biggest deal out of absolutely nothing & try to make me feel like a piece of dirt. Needless to say, I didn't really care, nor did I feel like a piece of dirt. It was clearly Monday.

Yesterday was very humid. I kind of enjoyed it because it wasn't the sticky hot humidity of summer. When the air is damp like that I feel loose & wild in my body. Also, my body seems to have clicked back into gear. Operation Menses has begun! On Saturday, I was feeling a bit crappy, but couldn't figure out why exactly. Then it occurred to me that I was having The Cramps. Being on the pill for so long, I forgot about the precursor cramps and insane mood shifts. Awesome. I finally had to tell Mike to stop poking, tickling or pinching me or he was going to die. Painfully.
Today I just kept noticing The Cramps and wanting to make them go away. Even though they haven't been especially intense or debilitating (crosses fingers), I just kept noticing them and feeling rather weird that they were there and wanting to alleviate them. One major difference I've noticed since coming off the pill is a feeling of being alive. As though I were ... juicy. I suppose that sounds perverted but it's not what I mean. While on the pill I was starting to feel ... desiccated and hollow. I suppose screwing with your natural bodily rhythmns also screws up the subtle layers too.

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[wilhelmina-d.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean about the Pill. It's seemed to me that all of my emotions are stronger off the Pill. (Unfortunately that goes for the depression, too.) I like it, generally. I don't like that my body has reverted to its irregular schedule, so I never know when or if I'll have a period, but other than that I am pretty glad to be off of it.